SHEA'S STORY - A SECOND CAUTIONARY TALE

There are those who believe that a foolish slave gets what she deserves. This slave does not disagree, though she was one of the most foolish. she is commanded by her Master, to tell of her own folly, in the hope that her sisters might learn from this slave, and is prepared for whatever recriminations may result.

This slave is shealayne. she comes before All to recount a story which eerily parallels that of "The Cautionary Tale". A girl takes a calming breath as she kneels, at the feet of her Kaga`musha, her Shadow Warrior Master, her strength and refuge, clearing her chaotic mind of emotion, His hand warm and strong against her collared neck, and begins to speak.

It is perhaps relevant that this slave preface her story by saying that she is an American, aged 37, a divorced mother, employed professionally, mostly sane, though this story will hardly induce Any to think her sensible. she belonged for seven contented years, to a Master who followed the teachings of the Oriental Society, before His company relocated Him. A slave was unable to accompany her Master and was released. In pain at His loss, she felt cast adrift for several months, until she took steps to regain her balance, which steps, unfortunately, took her into path of a Parasitic Personality, a Predator.

Seeking the friendship of other slaves, a girl came to the IRC. During her first week upon irc.bondage, a girl visited many BDSM-oriented channels; at times repulsed by the behavior she observed, until one night, she entered a Gorean channel. Trained in strict, defential Oriental style, a girl suddenly and happily found what she had been seeking. Here, upon Gor, was honorable behavior, discipline, respect, clearly defined Male/female roles and blessedly familiar structure and protocals. a girl felt she had come "home".

she began training as a white silk, progressing and learning, eager to be pleasing, and hopeful, that among the Gorean Masters, might be One interested in owning this girl in reality. By the spring of 1999, a girl was known as "kamiko{P_S)" and was collared to the S_______ upon irc.bondage for training by Master K______, a Gorean Master of Asian descent, Who helped a girl reconcile her slave belly and heart with her past real life training. Eventually, her good behavior earned the Master's consent to travel, and she ventured to AustNet, into a channel where she met a Master called "Belgarath"**, of the Caste of Magicians. a girl was smitten and returned often to serve in this channel, where Belgarath was an Op. **Master also used the nick "ArchAngel"..with various ^ or ` added at times.

In the time of coming to know this Master, He told a girl His Name was "Ron", 41 years of age, an American who was living near Perth, Western Australia, having married an Australian woman some 8 years prior. He was now divorced from her, living with a roommate, and working as a paramedic connected with the Royal Hospital of Perth and the Flying Doctors' Service of the Outback. A girl found the Master compelling and spent hours speaking with Him, going without sleep to compensate for the 12 hour time difference between countries. Eventually, a girl was commanded by the Master to telephone Him. Not long after she began calling, she was collared to Master Belgarath and became shea{Bel^} a/k/a shealayne{Bel^}. Master Belgarath set up His own channel, known as Bel's_Tower, first upon AustNet and then Bondage.net. Master told shea that He worked 48 hour shifts...two days on and two days off..and on the "off" days, a girl could not contact Him. He spoke with her only via His work computer or when she called Him at work, telling her He had no home telephone, nor could He afford to call her, since outgoing calls in Australia are very expensive. Belgarath was a commanding personality, extremely intelligent and articulate and seemed to be all that this girl had wished for in a Master.

As time passed, the Master spoke often of His dislike for His life in Australia and His desire to return to the United States. His voice sometimes broke as He expressed feeling homesick. Master spoke of visiting America in 1997, and how He wished He had remained, but that He had returned to Perth so as to not deprive His 6 year old daughter of her Father. During one call, the Master sounded ill; congested, weak, His voice slurring and His concentration poor. Alarmed, a slave begged the Master to tell her what was wrong, and the Master advised that He had been suffering from the flu, but had no health insurance to seek medical attention, since Australia paid low wages to Americans and He earned less than $12,000 a year. He mused that He might be able to see a doctor in a week or so, when He received His next paycheck and hoped He didn't have pneumonia by then. A slave asked if a Friend might lend Master the money until payday and He replied that Australians hate Americans..I have no Friends here. With each phone call, the Master sounded more weak and more congested, until finally, a slave offered to pay for the medical care needed. After initially refusing, the Master requested $250 American, promising to repay this slave after His next paycheck, and the funds were wired via Western Union to Him.

When next a girl spoke on line with her Master, He was feeling much better and she was overjoyed at having been able to help, but within a week, He was sicker than before and a girl was deeply concerned (more money was wired). One evening, while visiting with her Master in the Tower, a slave entered, speaking with such familiarity to her Master, that this girl knew T/they had known each other well. As the conversation continued, that slave spoke to this girl's Master of unprotected sexual encounters between the two of them which occurred in America in 1997. To this girl's shock, the slave then accused the Master of infecting her with Hepatitis C, and that she had been hospitalized for jaundice and suffered liver damage. After initially denying this, the Master broke down, speaking with convincing self-reproach of His regret, and assuring the poor slave that He had not known He was infected with the disease when He had visited her.

After the slave departed, the Master told this girl He had just been diagnosed Himself with Hep C and that His "illness" was actually the severe side-effects of an experimental drug treatment, combining Interferon with another drug, to be taken via abdominal injection by Him, for six months. He said that His condition was very bad, so bad He had been accepted immediately into the treatment program, being administered by the Royal Hospital in Perth, where He had connections. His care, however, was limited to seeing a nurse-practitioner once a month and no drugs to combat the side-effects were provided by the treatment program since they would affect the data being compiled. a girl asked why the Master had not told of her this before collaring her, He replied that it was His decision as Master and He would have told her when the "time as right". a girl could not bear the suffering of the Master and resolved to stand by Him, no matter what. He expressed love for this girl repeatedly along with His wish to come and live with her in America, saying that with her care, and that of American doctors, He had a much higher chance of recovery.

What followed this admission were months of chaos; the loss of the Master's job due to His illness; His alleged eviction from His apartment; His constant need for funds for food, petrol, medical care and to support His 6 year old daughter; accusations and stories of Master's past behavior with two other slaves. Thru it all, a slave stood by Him, believing in Him absolutely, wiring funds now into the thousands of dollars to support Him until He could complete the six month medical treatment, even paying His internet service provider in Australia so that He might remain on line.

The arrival date of her Master in America was to be mid-September of 1999. During the summer of 1999, after being "evicted" from where He was renting a room, her Master began renting a room in a house from a couple He described as Friends. Many times, a slave would call and be told that Master was not around or be told He was over at G's house, "G" being His "ex-wife". If Master were there, He'd be "unable to talk". Loud background noises and party-like sounds were usual, but Master would say it was the couple's Friends visiting. a girl would call at mid-day Perth time and All would be sleeping or so incoherent she couldn't hold a conversation. she grew increasingly troubled but each time she was about to beg release, Master would call and and offer some explanation; telling her on one occasion He was sleeping in an unheated shed constructed of corrugated metal, not actually a "room", and doing this to economize for her, risking His health further in the cold Australian winter. This girl felt filled with guilt for doubting her Master and pushed her fears aside.

A girl's contact with her Master grew less and less as the summer continued. He told her that He was no longer able to log onto the internet, since He had given His computer to His landlords in lieu of money owed to them. He also said they were unhappy with Him as a tenant, due to His illness which had "completely disabled" Him, and terminated His telephone privileges. This slave became frantic to get her Master to the United States for treatment and to end the constant problems in being able to communicate with Him. At His request, a girl contacted the American Consul in Perth, the United States Veterans Administration, the Red Cross, and even her own US Senators, to beg that her Master be allowed a seat upon a military transport so that He might be re-patriated and admitted for treatment to a US Veteran's Hospital. Stymied at every turn by red tape, and frightened her Master might not recover, a girl's Master then told her if she could not pay for the ticket, He would not be able to leave Australia, as their was No One He could get the money from. a girl agreed and was given the telephone number to a travel agent in Perth, where Master had already reserved His flight.

The tickets were purchased and a hotel room was reserved in Los Angeles, so that Master might rest overnight when arriving from Perth, before flying from LAX to this girl's home city in Pennsylvania. This brings us to the last week of August. On a peaceful summer Sunday morning, a girl received a telephone call at 6AM her time. Half-asleep, she heard a cultured, accented British-style voice ask for her by name. When she replied "yes", the called identified herself as Master's wife, "G" ( explaining that she was indeed this girl's Master's wife, divorced from Master in 1998, but remarried to Him in February of 1999, just prior to Master meeting and collaring this slave.) "G" said she had found a Western Union funds pickup receipt in Master's pocket that day while doing His laundry since He was staying over the weekend with her, containing this girl's address and telephone number.

What followed was a six hour telephone conversation, where this slave heard a sickening story of 10 years of spousal and child abuse, cons, thefts, lies, criminal charges, drug addiction and deceit on the part of her beloved and soon to be real life Master. Nearly everything He had told this girl was false. The honest suffering in "G"'s voice could not be denied...she was speaking the truth..and made the call to warn this slave. Strangely, when a girl told "G" that Master was to fly to America in two weeks and that she had purchased the ticket for Him, "G" begged that this girl allow Master to keep the plane ticket. "G" wanted Master gone from Austrailia and out of her life, confiding that she did not have the strength to be free of Him. "G" then told a girl Master had a criminal record and warned this girl not to allow Him anywhere near this girl or this girl's child.

Master was indeed married and had been working on a "loving reconciliation" with "G" during the entire time this girl was supporting Him and helping Him to leave Australia to live with her in the US. "G" was also giving Him money, although she explained to this girl that Master needed no money for His medical treatment - Australia has a social welfare system where All are covered. "G" confirmed that Master did have Hepatitis C, but had suffered chronically from it for years due to His abuse of His own body and had contracted it, not thru His "job as a paramedic" but from His 20 year addiction to intravenous drugs. "G" surmised that the funds this girl had been sending steadily, while piling up debt in the thousands, went for Master's illegal drugs and His own selfish pleasures, and none had gone to help support His daughter by "G". The slave, still not wanting to believe she had been used so cruelly, repeated to "G" Master's promise to repay this girl when He arrived in America, from funds direct deposited from His "full Military Pension" into an American Bank Account. "G" advised this girl that Master's "pension" was a $99 a month stipend He received for a shoulder injury He had faked years ago to gain release from the Army and that He "spent it as fast as He got it". There was no Bank Account.

A girl spoke to "G" several times in late August and September. Master would also call, collect, and speak angrily to this girl, refuting what she had been told by His wife. Conversations comparing the calls from Master between "G" and this girl made it clear that Master was playing off this girl and "G", trying frantically to cover His lies, and see which of us would be willing to take Him in. His stories made no sense and He cursed violently when a girl questioned anything. A girl also received a call, and spoke at length with Master's former landlady, who confirmed His addiction, admitting unashamedly that she sold drugs for a living and that Master was a long-time addict. She knew all along Master was using the funds this girl was wiring for drugs, but felt that business was business and no need to tell this girl what was going on. She stated Master still had a balance owed to her of over $1000 Australian for methampethemine and marijuana, and that He had "given" her His computer, cellular phone and automobile in lieu of payment, and then "stolen" them back from her house. She had filed criminal charges with the police and said if this girl wasn't willing to make payment, a warrant would be issued for Master's arrest. (a girl, having been kicked hard enough in the head that her brain was working again, actually found that funny and laughed as she ended the call.)

a girl's life was a living hell by this point - she was reeling from shock and shame - and felt so sorry for the wife and little girl of her Master. Ten days before Master was to fly to be with this girl, He called to tell this slave He could not come to her after all...He could not "bear to leave His little girl." a girl listened quietly, knowing He lied, but, not wishing to set Him off, agreed and hung up the phone in relief. Master called again a week later, asking her forgiveness, professing His love and need for her as His slave, and telling her He had not called due to being in the Hospital for a bad burn on His hands (allegedly He had been burned by the drug dealers as a warning to pay up), and stating His intention to be on the plane to her in two days. a girl told Master He could not come unless He was told her the truth. Desperate, He admitted to His drug addiction and relationship with "G". This slave informed the Master He was no Master and that she would not have Him in her life and heard the "click" as Master terminated the call. In less than an hour, "G" called, advising a girl that Master had shown up in HER driveway begging to stay and expressing His love for her.

The Master was now desperate..slaveless, homeless, penniless..His life out of control. In a final attempt to be free of Master, "G" contacted the elders of her church, who held an "intervention" with Master..removing Him from "G"'s home and rooming Him with a church member when Master promised to voluntarily commit to a drug treatment program. Two days later, on a September day this girl once regarded with eager joy, Master disappeared. she received a call from "G" telling a girl about Master's disappearance, but this girl has heard nothing from Him. None of the monies have been repaid (in excess of $7,000 American) and she now battles her her credit card company over charges made by the Master (without her knowledge) to her VISA after His disappeance.

a girl's intent in telling this tale is two-fold:

the first: as a warning to All that Predators are out there; she begs her sisters to be cautious, and not to assume they could not be used as this girl was.

the second: the Master of whom this girl spoke may again prowl the IRC and Gor..do not be taken in, sisters, or you will lose more than money.

There were many dark days for this girl which were brightened by the Wisdom, Counsel and Support of Honorable Gorean Masters, Free Women and wonderful kajirae. You know who You are..a girl will not make Targets of Dear Ones by revealing Their Names....All of You have the gratitude and love of this girl.

For Any who wonder about this foolish girl now? ~smiles at her Master~ Over Thanksgiving Weekend, a girl went to meet a Master at a local restaurant. Upon arriving, her eyes found Him immediately waiting by the bar. He waits no more..nor does this girl..and she is thankful every day to be His. To find such a Love after pain...makes it all the more precious.

shealayne wishes All well.